Letting go

 

So innocent and naughty. Baby Oreo.

Let me introduce to Oreo. He is was still 4 month old and was still a puppy when we first got him. He was very scared and shy. But he was always hungry all the time and missed its mommy so he used cry until we hug him to sleep.

 Maybe there are times we need to leave home or our comfort to be in a better place. Maybe the beginning might be scary and hard to take a new way. But its never impossible when you try and doing things out of our comfort zone and tends to avoid it. There actually isn't a limit to what you are able to do unless you pass out. But we should know what actually are doing for that if not can also hurt us.

Oreo after being wit us for only three days or so he was already very playful and energetic. But still have a hard time sleeping alone so I used to help him sleep or he would sleep next to my bed. Sometimes he tried to get on my bed but was never successful but still try it every time. 

In the beginning we did not give him meaty foods cause most of the time when we raise dog they would choose to eat meat only and stopped eating vegetables. So for his health we mix dog food with our rice. As he gets older we added little meat where he did not become obsessed with only one type of food.

Containing yourself from things especially tempting things that everyone around you might have may be sad and disappointing to you and everyone. But having them when you know how to manage it and are mature enough to  understand the value of having it. Slowly learning things by yourself is a very important thing for living life in this world. Discipline yourself and know yourself is the best thing you can do for yourself .

Oreo is a very energetic dog whenever we go for a walk he never gets enough of it and always wanted more. Always eats a lot and playful. But even though he is cute and lovable he eat and destroy maximum three shoes of mine not count the other things.

But like nature he got sick and would not come inside the house. As dogs he is so smart that knowing being sick is not good thing and would hide until we bring him out and give him medicines and go frequently give him drips as he was not eating. But there was no sign of him getting any better just when we thought he was getting better he would get worse.

I was always with him in in the vet when he gets his drip. But one night he keeps on trying to go out and we let him sleep outside. During night while everyone was asleep he was making sound like he was having hard time breathing and would make little crying sound trying not to wake us up.

I really wanted to get up and help him but there was nothing I can do even if all that medicine was not working. So this come to my mind that death is something is something that even animals have to die  eventually and that he would not feel pain anymore. Trying to sleep even though I was worried sick.

And when I wake up he was already gone my father and my brother already buried him they say that it would be so hard for me to see him like that during that time I was very angry at them for not letting me see him now I get or understand them a bit. 

I think that death is something that we should learn how to accept it cause it is a very harsh truth that exist. And dealing it is something we should learn quietly and not just try to hide our feelings in being strong. We should let it out and accept the truth. I am not saying we should forget them, Never but we should let them stay in our heart and always remember them but to know that they are suppose to be in some place now. Not try to let them fill the space they left or the memories of them effect you but.

Fill the empty space with spreading love and let the memories strengthen you.